How can i get rid of the hatred i have torwards families?

what am about to say is gonna sound really stupid. i grew up with my mother. just her. she took me away from my dad and other relatives when i was just a baby. so she raised me on her own. due to that, i've always felt jealous of other people's families. specialy big ones. for examle, my boyfriend lives with his family, and he's always sharing with them, theyre so close. so when i see them i get really jealous because they have the family i always wished i had. it's sad really. it happens with every family i see. i cant help to get jealous. last night my boyfriend sent mea tet that said '' am having dinner with my family'' and i got so furious i deleted the text and turned my phone off. i dont get along wit my dad, or sisters. i dont like them either. because they had a family and i dont. i seriouly feel like an orphan...